Late Blooming Friendship?

1 April 2010 at 6:54 AM (Process, Relationship)
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I’ve been requested to allow a new acquaintance/relationship time to move through the many stages of friendship.

Quite honestly, I am SO not in the mood to wait or be patient in this arena.

So of course since that request [and my overt resistance to being patient] I have spent time with a different friend of 16 months, experiencing a new level of friendship that not only did I give up expecting, I did not believe possible. We talked. I learned new information about who he is at the core of his being. He, most uncharacteristically, shared how he felt about about a personal matter on a new subject. I mean, not surface superficial crap, but some heartfelt sentiment. No tears mind you but a level deeper than we typically visit, of late, maybe ever.

Whats more, I got a chance to share my somewhat raw feelings on a related subject. He listened. Seemed to understand; finishing a statement of mine which hurt too much for me to complete. Did not abruptly change the subject. Did offer genuine, believable to me, welcomed support.

Oh, so this is what it could look like to be in a relationship built over time and encompassing trust. I’ll be damned!

I am grateful for every where present Source vividly and dramatically demonstrating how I might benefit by allowing the request made of me to progress.

But still, the impatience…

And so it is!

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Committed Romance Mistaken

29 March 2010 at 9:15 AM (Relationship)

Recently I met an amazing man. We began a relationship I mistook for more committed romantic than it was.

But what I want to speak about is the amazing.

Amazing to connect with a human being with a sense of complete openness and honesty. Amazing to feel fully accepted as I am. Amazing, unwavering to this minute Trust! Wonderful understanding of what poets, lyricist and lovers everywhere get so excited about!

A welcome opportunity to feel blessed, valued and loved. I expect it is the closest I have ever felt to experiencing what Spirit offers, unconditional love. Wow! If you have not yet taken a dip in this pool, I most hardily recommend it as it is well worth experiencing.

I imagine my experience to be akin to this famous bit:

Alfred Lord Tennyson’s poem In Memoriam:27, 1850:

I hold it true, whate’er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
‘Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.


So even though I still smart from getting my head and heart straight–understanding this is not the relationship I reshaped it to be–I know that no where along my journey with this amazing man have I been abandoned by Spirit.

In fact I am sure the dancing feet of Spirit have traipsed through the whole of it. Which I know is a blessing, and for which I am grateful. So on the precipice of loosing this relationship completely or at least truly buggering it up, I give thanks for all that I have received over recent weeks: the gifts of knowing, of trusting, of being on the receiving end of attentiveness, of being visible, of bouquets of laughter and unending spontaneous smiles, of feeling valued, of being a member of the collective who knows all is right with the world, and yes, of course, feeling loved.

Finally, I give thanks for the gift of the power of the present moment which is abundant in the smarting salve Spirit.

And so it is.

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